Being Mum

Six  months ago, when my husband was telling me the benefits our new future would bring us... I never thought I’d be approaching 40 on my own with 2 children. Fast forward to now; I’m a proud single Mum.  Not because I feel empowered, but because everyone tells me how incredibly well I’m doing.... so it must be true, right?    I’m not going to lie, the immediate aftermath of my husband telling me he was leaving, made me feel like I wanted to go to sleep and never wake up.    What was wrong with me?    Why was I so undesirable?    I’m not perfect, granted, and I have my bad points; but I loved him, and I loved him hard.    I have no regrets about that.   Before parenting alone, I had support from him. If I had a busy day I could call on him to help out. It was easier.    Now, if I’m tired, I don’t have anybody there to pick me up. I have to stay strong, and when being strong is your only option, it’s amazing ...